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| By the way, I just enjoyed not adding cream and sugar to my instant coffee. That is just plain good black coffee and hot water. |
Love
is very beautiful. It gives you a different level of happiness. It makes your
face brighter, your smile livelier, and your eyes fuller of soul. It’s so
magical how love turns one to something amazing, unbeatable. It’s like earning
something to brag about, that all of your insecurities vanished before you as
someone accepts how the mess you really are.
But,
love, when taken away is so devastating. All of the wonderful things you had
will be doubled in reverse. It was so painful. You’ll lose not only the life
you lived happy but the person you knew you are. You’ll lose your identity.
I
experienced that myself. I had breakups and believe me damn i hate it.
Pain
lingers every freaking minute.
As
the fact creeps in your head, pain sinks to your heart, screwing your soul
turning it black.
It
was very hard for someone like me. I am never showy. I’m not expressive. I do
not hide things, i don’t know, I don’t intend to, but it’s me.
I was
silent then, fake smiles every time, fake happiness. No one notices especially
when you are the kind of funny guy. You look so sunny outside; no one sees the
tragedy inside. Everywhere i go i feel like I’m inside a storage room. Dark.
With no one.
Breakups
would put you to so much hurt that you’d choose to be single. The fear of
having another breakup and feeling the same or even greater hurt would haunt
you. You never want to taste that experience again.
But
time flies, I have realized and decided over time to make myself so much
better. And when you do that, you’re at the stage of rebuilding yourself. To
the new you. Rebuild yourself into a successful individual who chase goals.
I
have come to a point where achieving careers and further studies gives me the
happiness, contentment, fulfillment. Through this, I am finally doing things
for myself; to be better. And I am very happy.
Will
I ever be in a relationship again? The answer is yes. I still believe that God
has someone for me. And when that girl comes, if God would allow; she will
be the luckiest to have the best version of me she could ever have.
Grabe sya kaya lodiii kita ehhh😂
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